Stuck in a Moment
The wisdom of Nyanko-sensei.

I feel really bad about not being affectionate or wanting to be touched at all really. He didn’t do anything wrong I just don’t want it. Its not fair to him to live in a relationship that completely lacks intimacy, yesterday he was laying on the couch and said “I just want affection, whats so wrong with that?” 

Ugh. Its not fair to him that I pull away when he touches me, that I never want to have sex, that I never kiss him, but I dont know what to do about it. If I dont want to and don’t feel the urge then what am I supposed to do? I could force myself but then Im just miserable the whole time wanting it to be over with. Meh. Its gotten a lot worse since the med increase.